Today finds me enfolded in the loving arms of my God. Although still going through, I am not in the same place I was even a week ago.
Truly learning how to be content in whatever state I am in is a liberating although challenging experience at the same time. When we say that we are ready to let go and let God, do we honestly accept what that truly means? Our expectations of what God has for us are sometimes immensely different from the actual experience He has planned. The one thing I do know is that truly trusting that He wants what is best for us and has our best interests in mind when He cares for us helps our understanding tremendously when the experience turns out to be different than we expect. God’s best for us is never just about this particular moment. It is also about our future as well as walking in His purpose for our lives and the others we are to impact for His glory.
If someone had told me twenty years ago, I would be where I am today, I would have been insistent that they were misinformed. However, I recall a vision the Lord gave me about that long ago and it seems He did tell me. I did not understand at the time because physical details were not apparent. The spiritual details were what He shared. I remember calling on the name of Jesus in this vision. I trusted that as the Word says, He is on the right hand of the Father ever making intercession for us. To know that even so long ago He knew my days and where I would be at this moment, it is humbling knowing that with all the wrong choices, mistakes, misunderstandings, etc. He would still be loving me intensely.
He said He would never leave me nor forsake me. How awesome is our God! He has me in a challenging place but I am not alone. The personal relationship is what being in this place is all about. Life is not life without the darts coming at us, the enemy seeking to steal, kill and destroy. Job says that the Lord gives and the Lord takes away. He says that though He slay me, yet will I trust Him. So, I am content in Him because of Him.