My thoughts are a bit rambled. But here I go nonetheless. It has been a rough week. The challenges keep coming and I am doing my best to stand on God’s Word. That He will never leave us nor forsake us. When I committed to my writing in January, little did I know what I would have to write about. I knew that I would be writing about God’s Word and how it applies to my life. I knew I would be writing about some of the challenges I face. But I am truly in a hard place. Working three part-time driving jobs here in Vegas and still being virtually homeless is not where I saw I would be. I was hopeful for the hours so I could pay my bills and get caught up. The trickling in keeps me behind and living in a weekly keeps me in a cycle that is just a little bit crazy.
Never thought I would be putting myself on blast but I am still hopeful that God will work this out. I am determined to go forward. However, sleeping in my car in 108° weather is not helping my determination at this point. I am willing to move from this state to another where I can actually get a full-time job. Praying about where and trusting that I am led by the Holy Spirit. I have over thirty years of experience in the administrative field but God has not opened that door here in Vegas. I have a Bachelor’s degree in graphic design but need to work on some areas. The time spent on these part-time jobs makes that almost impossible. I do need to write though to keep my sanity, so here I am. I am glad that this is a venue where I can come to keep my sanity.
In trying to make the best of the situation, I am still optimistic despite what it looks like. And, when what needs to happen happens, God will get all the glory. Have you ever been at a point where you don’t even know how to pray? I pray God’s Word and the enemy keeps throwing the darts. Playing dodge ball right about now with the shield though.
As I type this post, I also flip back and forth through the Reader to see what others are writing. I am inspired by the post from BeautyBeyondBones and share the link to the post here. In her vulnerability regarding her battle with anorexia, she addresses the darts from the enemy coming in requests and/or comments about what it was that drew her to that place. In her power, she took a stand for her boundaries and refused to allow the enemy access. One of the quotes she used resonated with me. It is “Sometimes you have to burn the bridge to keep from crossing it again.”
I feel like I am there. There are some bridges I need to burn and they are about me and not others. I was inclined not to post this but because of her courage in admitting her weakness at this moment in time, I am empowered to do the same. This does not diminish my faith nor my belief that God is there for me and that He will not leave nor forsake me. What it does do is get me out of my emotions. That is certainly where we fall, the ever-changing emotions. When we succumb to them in a pattern of destruction, it only adds fuel to create more. This, in turn, creates a cycle that is frustrating more than anything and keeps us repeating emotional work that has already been done. The destruction being those negative thoughts or the emotions of despair, failure, doubt or worry. I am ever so humbled that the fighting spirit of this young lady helped me to revisit my own.
Today’s thoughts end with the fact that as we share our journey, you never know who you are helping or how. And, even though our challenges are so different, the result is that we will stand in the power of our Lord and Savior Jesus and not give any power to the adversary. Please take a few moments to read the post from the link. Stay empowered and thank you BeautyBeyondBones!
P.S. This post did not start out highlighting another but I am humbled and privileged to do so. This is how the day unfolded, in His arms and encouraging others in our needs. Praise Him!