Today was a good day. I didn’t have to work and took the time to just relax in going about my day. I did plan to go to church but didn’t. I worked late last night and needed the rest. However, I have been listening to the spirit and understand more about living in the now than ever before. I don’t yet have a permanent address so I am not sure what church I want to start. The goal for the church I attend is a place to go fellowship, worship and hear the Word of the Lord. It’s coming.
After posting about the significance and importance of quiet, I have had some today. I am grateful to God for it. I must say that in the quiet time or in the spirit, I realize that I have changed quite a bit. One of the things that I realize is that I no longer have the desire or need to be codependent. Being a parent of adult children, sometimes we can fall into that trap without really trying.
One thing that I have accepted is that God loves my children more than I ever could. He has a plan and purpose for their lives just like He does mine. And, even when you have good information for them, they may not receive it from you because you are the parent. My adult children are individuals who have the opportunity to figure themselves out as adults just like I did. The great part about being here is the freedom that comes from knowing it is all in God’s hands. There is acceptance that I can still be a good parent by praying for them continually.
Another part of this experience is seeing them grow. I used to fear a lot for my children because of this crazy world. All the negative influences and the seduction of what the world has to offer, the emptiness and shallowness as well as the loss of the soul. Being a believer in Christ, accepting and believing God’s Word, has helped tremendously in this aspect. Reflection on my own parents also helped me realize that they probably had the same concerns. But as I see, my siblings and I grew up and became parents ourselves. There is the peace of God that I am always grateful for and there is a peace that comes from maturing and realizing that you will be just fine. You find strength that you didn’t think you had. You find talents that come from needing to improvise. You find that you can do without so many things that you once thought you would die without.
With all the information I have read about learning to love yourself, especially from the WordPress blogging community, it seems as if there is a place of resolve that I now have to let be God be God in this area and work on my own strengths. No, I don’t focus nearly as much mental energy on my weaknesses. It is part of the process of learning to love myself. Not saying I am ignoring what needs to be improved but taking a different perspective and road for my own development.
Today’s post is really about the Scripture spoken by Paul. That would be to be content in whatever state I which I find myself.
