Perplexed bewildered, puzzled, entangled, complicated, involved
Yes, my friends, today I am perplexed. Lost my Amazon job. The reasoning is that since I do not return the packages that are undeliverable immediately back to the warehouse, it is cause for releasing me from their contract of service. Timing is great, right? Every time it seems I get close to getting things in order, I get a setback. Yes, I am perplexed??? Not sure what God is doing. I know that the timing of this release from service and the suit for the attack from the dogs is ironic.
At this point, I feel numb. I know that God has His plan in place. Right now the fog is heavy and thick. However, when we cannot see our way, we must trust. That is where I am right now, trusting Him to continue being Jehovah Jireh, my provider; Jehovah Nissi, my banner; and Jehova Rapha, my healer because my heart is heavy. Continue reading Perplexed???
In the grand scheme of things, when we think of demonic activity, we picture the red devil with the pitchfork. In my absence from posting, I have been reading quite a bit and praying. I hadn’t realized that I was under such a great attack. This post is about the victory of knowing that we do have the power of God in us: the Holy Spirit and the Word of God, the sword of the spirit to combat his attacks. I am talking about our thought life and the emotions that the devil uses to a great extent to keep us from walking in that power. He knows that when we truly get a hold of using the knowledge and power together, many will be saved. The Word says that the harvest is plenty but the workers are few. Why? Because many of us are fighting our own personal battles instead of standing in the gap for others. I have to say that I did feel the prayers of those who did pray for me. It makes me more sensitive to the fact that we should be praying even more so for our brothers and sisters in Christ, as well as the unsaved. 
Today I thank God for His mercy, grace and provision. Although the lenses from which I few seemed to be clouded, scratched up, etc., I know that He is faithful. As I listen to Him, I am being obedient to take the day to write, rest and leave things in His hands. I am so grateful. Didn’t have to be here today, literally. And, since my dog experience, this is more real than ever before. Not sure why, but things don’t always hit home until something happens so close to home that it cannot be avoided.
That said, I want to talk about moving forward from the things of this world to the matters of heaven. People are dying senselessly, the crazy presidential race has become a farce regardless of who you want to vote for and making a decent living seems to be a challenge in a class all by itself. (What happened to the middle class?) The Word of God says that things will continually wax worse and worse until Christ returns. Are you prepared? I had to ask myself this serious question. Am I? Are my thoughts consumed with what is going on in the world today or making sure that I am following Christ? This is not about not caring for people in this world. This is about being ready. I know many of you know about the Left Behind novels and what that means Scripturally. While this point may seem irrelevant or invalid to some, the question to ask is if it is true, will you be left behind? If it is not true, no loss.
It has been about two weeks again since posting. There is so much going on around me that I am taking things in stride. Of course, keeping my commitment to write to encourage others and share my journey as well as my testimony about the goodness and mercy of God wasn’t well received by the enemy. From the dog attack to other areas of spiritual attacks, I am here to say that God is still good and that He is the same loving God today as He was yesterday. His word still holds true and we just have to hold on. Had a meltdown yesterday and the Lord was still there, carrying me through. 