You know you have made the right decision to pursue a certain way and then chaos comes to throw you around. You know God has opened a certain door and it seems that the enemy sends distractions to take you off course. This is exactly what is happening to me. I am still working out all the nuances and at this point, I can only be patient. Who’s report will I believe? I will continue to believe the report of the Lord.
I write this to myself today because my bank account is overdrawn. The funds are trickling in and yes, trickling at this point. Bills are due and overdue. My car has lost its mind. Does a car even have a mind? Maybe not, but I think mine does. Okay, so I got the master cylinder fixed last week. Yesterday, the car started cutting off. The camshaft sensor has to be replaced. Yes, of course it does. And, I know that I now need brakes. The squeal let me know. Though not loud at this point, they are whining. I have two driving jobs. Direct connection here. The driving jobs allow me the flexibility I need to pursue my writing. I believe that God did give me the second driving job. Although I have extensive administrative experience, God did not open those doors again. My administrative experience keeps me organized though and is still quite useful. I humbly follow the doors He opens. My commitment to writing is under attack.
It’s tax season. I have all the W2’s except one. Why is it taking so long? Don’t know. Had to just realize that patience is a virtue. Yes, I did make that point in the post on Wednesday, This Week’s Frenzy . Working, or at least trying to and I had to stop and exhale. No, I am not giving up and I am not going to stop believing God. I have to release the madness of the chaos. Therefore, I write. “No weapon formed against me shall prosper.” (Isaiah 54:17, NKJV). Be it chaos, circumstance, bills, etc.
I like the saying “perfect practice makes perfect.” As I practice the perfect practice of trusting God no matter what it looks like, get a hold on my thought processes (kicking out the negative invaders), speak the Word to myself and pray, I know that God still has my back. While this post seems like it may be all about me, I hope to encourage and help someone else by saying, “This too shall pass.” I know things will change because change is the only constant. Even in our walk with the Lord, growth is change.